Digging In: A Novel by Loretta Nyhan

Author:Loretta Nyhan [Nyhan, Loretta]
Language: eng
Format: azw3
ISBN: 9781503951709
Publisher: Lake Union Publishing
Published: 2018-03-31T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 15

Excerpt from Petra Polly: Chapter 9—Dealing with Failure by Forgetting about Success

So your idea fails. What now? Some will worry, some will give up, and some will keep pushing the dying idea until it is a lifeless, floppy mess. None of these will help. What will help is forgetting. Forget the concept of success, at least temporarily. Forget the failure. Forget the stress and the disappointment. Don’t analyze what went wrong. Don’t flog a dead horse. Forget it all so you can be reborn. A clean slate. No ideas ever existed before this very moment. Free yourself from the pressure of success, and you’ll free yourself of the oppressiveness of failure.

“What happened to reaching the brass ring?” I asked Jackie while she blew smoke in the other direction. The Landon presentations were scheduled for the evening, and the atmosphere at Guh was nearly intolerable. Each duo guarded their project with police-dog ferocity—even Jackie hadn’t told me what she and Seth had come up with. She stalked across the office, looking miserable when she asked me to join her for a break, so I assumed things weren’t going well. I thought Glynnis and I did a decent job—not spectacular, but not merely passable. We had a chance.

Jackie made a disapproving sound. “Petra Polly was drunk when she wrote this. Like Rhiannon said, she makes fuck-all sense.”

“If we see her in a bar, we’re beating her silly.”

“I want to yank those golden braids. Hard.”

“She’s probably the type who’d like it.”

We laughed, but there was no joy in it. Because it came from fear.

“We’re not ready,” Jackie said after a fierce inhale. “Seth thinks we are, but we’re not. I don’t think he understands what’s on the line here.”

“I think he does,” I assured her. “But even if he doesn’t, you know what you’re doing. You’ve got this.”

Jackie shrugged. “I didn’t tell you, but I sent out some résumés about ten days ago. I haven’t heard a word. Not a word. I can’t lose this job, Paige.”

“You won’t. It’s not going to be us that get the boot. It can’t be.”

“I don’t see Rhiannon and Byron failing.” Jackie quietly finished her cigarette. We gazed out at the empty parking lot.

“I miss the market when it’s not here,” Jackie said. “Hard as it is to admit.”

“We need to have another dinner at my house.” I checked my phone. It was five o’clock. “It’s time to get back upstairs. Lukas is going to be prompt.”

Jackie put a hand tentatively on my arm. “Paige, if it is me, will you still keep up our . . . friendship?”

There was so much insecurity in her eyes. There shouldn’t have been. We’d known each other for nearly two decades. It shamed me to think I hadn’t strengthened our connection over the years enough that she wouldn’t be so afraid it would snap easily.

“Of course we’ll still be friends.” I drew her into a quick hug. Her sprayed hair tickled my nose, and she smelled like Poison. “Our friendship goes beyond this office.

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